Real world has never been just black or white. It's much more complicated than that..hence the adultery, betrayal, spit, vomit, butt-poking & other complicated matters. Love has no gender, bias, or boundaries..are ''humans essentially the only gay animal in nature''?..it has been tested and some animals are gay, my friends bunnies are lesbian. and fate is given once ur borned, we can change the turns..but some are left untouchable. accept & give in. pray it doesn't rape ur imaginations. have these crazee mixed feelings the last few days. everytime i dont put up my defense, i get depressed afterwards. i regret letting peeps treatin me like shit, i blame it on my ignorance & stupidity for allowing myself to get into that situation over n over. damn mothafuckas..but im better now. treated myself with uncountable cups of ice cream. baskin robbin is one pimpin mothafuckin healer. but ice cream is like joyful unprotected sex..u have this huge guilt afterwards =="
made a montage for fun, done in after effect with some time remapping, color corrections & 8mm filters for vintage looks. edited the scenes from my fav movies.
besides gibberish some cool things happnd this month..i caught dengue mthrfkin fever.. all i cared was to shed another 5 pnds from it im 165 n 52 kg..but i feel like 200pnds beauty phone sex operator HanNa. u shoulda see my face i could scare the shit out of ugly spirits in that hospital, hands n feet swollen skin flooded with mushrooms mosaics & snowflakes the amount of lake Tahoe's on my head. plus my mom brought in jugs of guava juice, chinese meds mixes that i had to chug...dude i swore peed like 4x per hr. n freakin nurses insisted on bathing me felt like a raped monkey coz none of'em were good lookin. the hospital was flooded with feverish delinquents, it was a trend.
last 5th of march was my dad's bday its been 5 yrs, still miss him - love my dad, he's the perfect definition of wht an 'unconditional love' is . he used to love the com so much. i always busted him from storing naked lesbians hardcore pics in the family's com, he's way too kinky for MILF & transgenders... he's my sunflower, my rainbow...hey man i still rmb him gettin out of bed about 30mins b4 he passed away...so much desire to live, a diehard rockstar.
alas another great news..i started playin games again..the very same game i quited 3 yrs ago...the very same game that ruined my life n almost got me kicked out of my undergratuate yrs..its like that saying ..a dog who keeps comin back to eat its own puke over n over. fine, then i would be a maltese. make me a lucky glorified loser.
i've been obsessed with wondergirls...SunYe lately..those times i spent hrs n days just whorin at their utube vids...its like she couldnt get enuff of me watching her..yes me and SunYe are both lesbians from zeta reticuli. but it didnt last.. lil bych nichkhun came between us. perhaps I'll wise up and just say fck it and go make some tea. i did found new hobbies, ogling at food art blogs/art of feeding, art of fisting, art of urination on how mictuartions can be like porcelains gleaming under the night sky. oh simple things make me slip n fall into amusement, take my mind off the hook and let it wander the whole bazaar in wonder.
just keep drinking.
zbrush doodle.The Devil Wears Lacroix, n she looks pissed coz some psychedelic shamans casted off her buttons.
Downloaded the trial version of zbrush, been wanting to try it for ages &..it's kinda hard for the first few hours..trying to feel the brushes & their intensity/falloffs to sculpt, finding what works & not. it's definitely a god given software to 3d..im hooked. It makes ur modeling so much faster,tho u still have to bring it back n fro to Maya for UV layout/normal mapping, subtool, mentalray etc..havent yet to test these.
Heads freestyle sculpting..a good practice & yet to try it with a wacom tablet. *laughs* at mohawk.
It is also called 'The Eternal City' and Italy's capital. Everythin you see here are timeless from the ancient ruins to modern day galleries and shopping areas, are the evidence of remnants that had been preserved for almost 3000yrs.
Spotted this tiny lil bug like car on a street...isnt it the cutest =)
Giolitti..Rome's oldest & most famous Gelatto shop. Packed with tourists..it was raining n i had a chocolate tiramisu combo..brava Italy!!~
Absinthe anyone? Found a liquor store & i had a huge urge to import all these home but found out absinthe is illegal in asia..boo..absinthe is a very alcohol concentrated mixtures (70% +) for u to mix'em with variety of drinks.
After that we went to Vatican City. It is a Catholic monarchy whose territory consists of a walled enclave within the city of Rome (it's the only independant state within a city). At 44 hectares and with a population of around 900, it is the smallest state in the world by both population and area. the city is ruled by Bishop of Rome, the Pope and its highest state functionaries are all clergymen of the Catholic church. It is the sovereign territory of the Holy See (Sancta Sedes) and the home of world's largest religious art buildings : Apostolic Palace (the Pope's residence), The Sistine Chapel (most grandeur chapel ever decorated by the combined genious of greatest Reinassance artists Michelangelo, Raphael, Bernini, Bramante, Maderna and Botticelli..ultimate insanity of art on crack pilgrimage), St. Peter's Basilica (St. Peter's tomb is below the altar of the basilica)...which are all too immortal for me virgin eyes..
Sistine Chapel's interior.
St. Peter's Basilica.
to the right of entrance..theres Pieta by Michelangelo..it stole my senses, my frequency just died..it's so overwhelming..i drifted around while my hand tightly clutched the vid cam ..it's like the most magnificent things in the world all exist inside the chapel. Michelangelo is one insane being.
Michelangelo's Pieta
Swiss guards have very high reputation of the most loyal, discipline mercenaries. They generally have served as ceremonial guards, palace guards at foreign european courts since the late 15th century & still exist today as the Pope personal bodyguards (only 134 of them in the Vatican). Recruits to the guards must be Catholic between the age of 19-30 and at least 175cm tall, Swiss citizens & have exception performance in Swiss Military to obtain certificates of good conduct. It's said that Michaelangelo designed the Swiss Guard's uniform, the Reinassance style uniform weighs 8 pounds, and may be the heaviest uniform in use by any standing army today. They are also the most complicated to construct, one uniform takes 32 hours to complete. To me they look more like models than bodyguards, the fact that Pope Benedict only recruits boys from 19+ of age with perfect figures...is very questionable ==v
Vid i caught of the Swiss guards marching with their infamous halberds...they're about to escort the Pope to his sunday's milky bath & potty session.. i felt so lucky ==v
*Swiss Guard vid coming up*
Next trip is Brussel capital of Belgium =)..capital city of European Union, therefore about 20% of its population are foreigners. its like the most beautiful city next to Paris imo..i luv it so much everyone here has this friendly aura...so gay so joyous!!!
A mobile escargot soup stall ..i no want le petite escargot in me tummy ...where r le foie gras stall?
A nice lookin Irish pub fits all the sloppy drinkers. Passed by this uber cute candy store La Cure Gourmande! along the street of Rue au Beurre which leads to the Grand Place square. Their initial idea was to reintroduce the good old ancient traditional products that were popular hundred years ago, they sell homemade like candies, chocolates & cookies. Not to mention the packaging are freakin adorable in colors..^^v The Grand Place or Grote Markt - Market Square is the main tourists attraction in Brussels..skyrise gothic architectures from 14th century and small shops filled up the square sides..and they're somewhat different from the Reinassance style of Paris n Rome's...i feel like Brussels leans toward Austrian Baroque with plenty of Art Nouveau. Writers like Victor Hugo and Baudelaire were also struck by the charm of the market square with its beautiful set of Guild Houses dominated by the Town Hall and the King's House. Belgians here speak mostly french n dutch.
The Grand Place at night, with the square's carpet exposed. This isnt my pic tho =X i just have to post it lol..its crazy beautiful.
Holland!!! i was rly lookin forward to this trip...like everyone else ..i guess we're after the same things LOL..From brothels to sex shops to condom museums, gay bars & cinemas the Red Light District leaves nothing to the imagination. The RLD are these areas where women, of all colors, parade their goodies inside red-fringed window parlours lighten with redish/pinkish neons, many ready to offer more than a school boy peep-show in a private cabin. You can find girls anything from Queen Latifa to Paris Hilton look alike here...i'd prolly make it big too in RLD..lol They also call it the Rossebuurt (Dutch for ‘pink’ or ‘red’ neighbourhood) is in fact one of the oldest and most beautiful parts of the city with its long winding narrow streets and utterly charming 14 th century architecture. Amsterdam prides itself on its liberal and tolerant attitude, embracing the fact that people may be into prostitution, soft drugs and pornography, and it's only human. So instead of criminalizing everything, this very upfront city wears its heart on its sleeve-what you see is generally what you get. Enjoy the honesty of it all, as you won’t find it anywhere else. RLD is actually the safest area in Amsterdam as policemen, private bodyguards hired by the girls are always on duty. If window shopping in the RLD are not your cup of tea, there are brothels and private houses that offer a more traditional form of prostitution. If ur wondering wht kind of peep shows they offer..lets just say i saw preview pics of smexy brunettes being tied up upside down & shoving bottles up her {V} *^^*
Lame piece of weeds i bought from random coffee shop for Euro $10, not gonna buy some again from arab dealers..the weed cake taste pretty good tho.
Floating chinese resto.
The green building is a floating historical center and the ship was used to bring spices from Indonesia during the Dutch's occupation. Anne Frank's house (the one thats covered by the car not the center..yea i almost missed it x.x)
View from Eiffel tower, Paris was a bit frosty that morning about 3-10 degree C. Eiffel is this old overrated iron tower named after Gustave Eiffel, built on the Champ De Mars beside the Seine River. The night before we took a boat ride along Seine River for magnificent views of Paris's architectures gleaming under the nite sky: Notredam, Luvre and Eiffel Tower lighten in blue neons all over its 300 meters structure. And my digicam had to went berserk n wont snap in the dark at all! I didnt get to go inside Louvre & any of the art galleries there..when my main intention in this Europe trip was to see Delacroix's..so it was a Toi mon christ, t'est completement fucked up! situation. Instead we spent tons of time in malls like La Fayette ==" and it's so packed with mainlanders, China is so freakin rich dude.. in the end i got me some Hermes, Vivienne Westwood & Antonio Sabo accessories ..whew so diva ==v
La Fayette's interior.
The Avenue des Champs-Élysées is like Paris's Beverly Hills..its the most pretigious avenue in Europe..the long luxury street is filled with cinemas, cafes, branded shops such as the main Louis Vuitton boutique, Hermes, Gaultier, Cartier and all its sort..with rents as high as $1.50 million a year for 1000 square feet of space, it remains the most expensive strip of real estate in Europe.
LV head quarter...3-4 storeys high. Again.. packed with mainlanders lol they're limited to buy one LV per day (each person) since the bags sell out like hotcakes and also preventing out of stock & product duplications. At the western end of des Champs-Élysées you can see The Arc de Triomphe monument standin in the centre of the Place Charles de Gaulle or the Place de L'Etoile. The monument is to honor those who fought for France during Napoleon and World War 2.
Another reason u should visit Paris is to try some of Pierre Herme's macaroons, he is a French pastry chef that Vogue called "the Picasso of Pastry". And only 2 ppl know about his recipes (him n his wife i guess), they dont come cheap either..about 7 macaroons = $17 Euro. Mind u the real french macaroons dont taste anything close to those over sweetened chemical saturated craps that Bakerzin or Wallgreen carries.
Final destination..Dubai. These pics were taken in Dubai's airport..its duty-free shop is the size of Takashimaya.
Hotel Burj Al Arab~ Spectacular, luxurious and adventurous are the keywords here. Recognised as one of the top ten best hotel restaurants in the world The Burj Al Arab literally means Tower of the Arabs, as a hotel it is the second tallest building at 321 meters. It is Dubai's iconic structure (like Paris with the Eiffel Tower) designed to symbolize Dubai's urban transformation and to mimic the sail of a boat. The hotel cost $650 million to build and cost of staying in a suite begins at $1,000 per night; the Royal Suite is the most expensive, at $28,000 per night. Its interior is a mixed of East and west, influences from classicism, art nouveau and arabic architectures, the inside facade that elevates resembles humongous golden avant garde submarine and huge aquariums besides the elevators greeted you on ur way in..many think its abit of a mismatch or an architecture gone jablay experience, but still it's pretty overwhelming..i cant really decide if the interior is just bad taste or simply trying to be adventurous by creating a unique characterisation to match the hotel's iconic statement.
Sheikhs paintings are displayed at the entrance.
Reception near the entrance. Inside the hotel are 2 among the most prestigious restaurants in the world, Al Muntaha (meaning "Highest") and Burj Al Arab's signature restaurant 'Al Mahara' elevates dining to heights of true perfection. The Al Mahara (meaning "Oyster") which obviously serves only seafood , is accessed via a lift which submerged underground, making the impression as if we're dining underwater when actually they're just large sea water aquariums build around it. Holding roughly 35,000 cubic feet (over one million litres) of water, the tank made of acrylic glass and 7.1 inches thick. To top that Al Mahara housed 8 celebrity chefs to satisfy ur food orgasms.
Lift that submerges and leads to Al Mahara. Lounge/waiting area & entrance.
Our table ..look at those poor empty champagne glasses T.,T
We had the 3 courses menu. Blackcod with creamy risotto, blue fin tuna tartar and tiramisu. The dinner menu is divided into 3 or 5 classic/modern courses and an a la carte, at about 650 dirhams for 3 and 800 dirhams for 5 and the sizes for each courses arent too pretentious imo.
Black squid ink bread in the middle...they're fantastic i had like 3 of those...tasted more like a rich savory dough with a tat of ocean flavour which stimulates ur taste buds & didnt leave any fishy after taste at all. Bluefin tuna tartar as starter ...great stuff. Al Mahara's seafood quality is top notch.
Blackcod fish with creamy risotto topped with mozarella, its sooo good! ToT
And the best always comes last, the waiters came n place these in front of us..n told us not to touch it yet, we're bit confused for a sec and they came back with a bowl of extremely hot chocolate and simmered those on top of our cold white chocolate balls..as i watched the hot chocolate melting the balls slowly revealing the tiramisu inside..i hit climax. Fckin A o.ob best magic on desserts ever!
Even more truffle chocolates after the tiramisu!..we left the resto very satisfied n bloaty lol.
Evening Desert Safari~! or rather ..Dune bashing! definitely a must thing to do when ur in Dubai. We departed in the afternoon with our Toyota Land Cruiser across the desert of Dubai for the ultimate toss n turn ride for an 1hr...warning this isnt for everyone who easily suffers sea-sick/barfing n u might break ur neck if ur too intense.as we grind on the heaps of the slopes. We stopped a few times for several photo session and watched the sunset in the middle of the dune...i've never felt such tranquility before it was beauty beyond my expectation, from what seems to be an endless land of dry sand gave so much solace. It reminds me of famous desert movies like Black Beauty and Lawrence of Arabia..whew so hollywood. We continued our dune drive to our first destination, a camel farm and later on stopped at a campsite for eeky bbq and a night of belly dancing..the dancer was a middle aged arabic woman and i was expecting a Shakira look alike..T^T The camels weren't friendly at all they growled when i tried to approach'em ..i was attempting to milk'em coz my tour driver said i could o_0 To my suprise the sand was uber non-sticky clean, it didn't leave any dirt marks on ur feet it has nice color n texture too! wee! i wanted to dive n hug the sand n sipped'em with straw....as i was about to do it (right >.>) some aunties from my tour group peed on it >.> they encouraged everyone to do it too..damn rockstars. i would had take their pics peeing if i my digicam wasnt full.
My trip ended here and we had to catch our flight the next morning ..overall it was fun, there're times that i wanted to fly back home real BADLY.. a crucial lesson...nxt time ur plannin on a few weeks trips...find a companion that's not a mix breed of half satan n half twit. RAAH!! bitch in my room had to ruined my mood the whole fckin time...and i should had tried the shisha = =" THE END.
europe trip (27th Sep - 15th Oct)..i went to 9 cities & was damn tiring since we stayed for like 1-2 days each..lol the rushing n lack of sleep nites =X.. Milan, Nice, Monte Carlo, Barcelona, Rome, Holland, Brussel, Paris & Dubai. Here are the pics in order of my trip~
Milan..my first impression of the city, a homeless intellect serenating the traffic for a couple of change...its sad n beautiful at the same time..the streets were empty that day coz almost everyone in town went to Inter Milan vs AC Milan games =) Few hours after we dropped our luggage in the hotel ...we went to the Piazza del Duomo which is the centre of Milan’s economic activities and the place features a glorious cathedral from the 14th Century. And surrounding the Duomo cathedral is a shopping heaven for fashion fanatics..its like every guy on the street are metrosexual..and all look like Ricky Martin, only better Lol the feeling of being there inside a Zara shop overlooking at a gothic 14th century's wonder..is fckin surreal o.ov
2nd trip ...Nice (pronounce as Niece) is this lil cozy city in France with tons of pretty street shops, amazing sea views..and what seems to be endless decoration of bird poops everywhere i walked.
**vids here** coming up
Next i went to Monaco's city, Monte Carlo is knows for its casino, glamour & for sightings of famous people also home to most of the Circuit de Monaco, on which the Formula One Monaco Grand Prix takes place. Monaco is located not too far from Nice..we took a ride about 3-4hrs and drove through 100+ tunnels which constructed high above the sea overviewing breathtaking seaviews of the french & italian coastals..one of them is Genova which is the biggest seaport in Europe. I didnt went into the casino, they charged 50 Euro just to look around it and ppl said there're hardly any players..thx to Macau the city is going bankrupt x.x"..Monte Carlo's economies are very dependant on its casino incomes, tourisms and its 3000 loaded residents.
Hotel De Paris, one of the most luxurious hotels in Europe and u cant miss Le Louis XV (mega expensive wtf bling2 US $500 per meal) restaurant with celebrity chef Alain Ducasse. Master chef Alain Ducasse has appeared in some of Iron Chef's series as a judge and they say if u get an internship in Louis XV's kitchen..ur qualified to start ur own restaurant..thats how overwhelming Louis XV' standard is.
The 'Smart' car sells like hotcakes in Europe. It's a joined production of Swatch & Mercedez Benz, the two seaters is about half the size of a regular sedan. Just like the gay watch..u can switch around the lil car's exterior n make it all colorful..kyaa~
Smexiest car ever...a 1950's vintage Maserati..this baby makes Bentley & RR = Lego
Barcelona, La Sagrada Familia (officially the Temple Expiatori de la Sagrada Familia ) is an unfinished Catholic basilica designed by the celebrated Art Nouveau architect Antoni Gaudi. Its filled with religious symbolism and meaning, eight of the intended have been built which rise to over 100 meters. The towers represent the Twelve Apostles and each one bears the name and statue of its apostle. The constructions are slow there're still not much technologies that can keep up with the basilica's organic structures, and from what i've heard the Spain government doesnt provide expenses for its constructions..they're all donated by people who enters to see it, rich families & sinners o.o" as atonements. I went up the tower through a small crampy staircase and i could swear the 100m towers were swaying beneath my feet...wasnt that fun x.x. Other than that~~~ Barcelona is a shoppin heaven!!! It's where Zara originates yo~
i love my blog....i can...like..type shits... I admit that my main motive in blogging besides being artly driven is just to ingest gibberish..im glad im not a victim of cheesy retarded man-child facebook kind of way...never have a need to send a mutherfckin bugs bunny virtual wink to someone..mm alcohol im addicted to the feeling of how it always saves me whenever my psychological state is highly fragile, makes me just sooo goddamn happy, why can't I feel like this all the time? ..craving for it everyday I think this is all for the better, as it allows me to speak my mind in ways I might otherwise not be able to. Without it i feel like im standing in shit all day, totally covered by it..==" withdrawal syndrome kicks in..To even care about the unknown timeless possibilities of reality..if only it's that goddamn easy..perharps we should get drunk instead <3~
Here's something to ogle about, u dont often get to see ppl's house burned this close..shot on 2nd Sep behind my office building it was pretty intense..x.x
